Lyrics

(Verse 1)
The room was perfectly still just a second ago
But the air in my lungs is starting to slow
A ghostly alarm begins ringing in my head
And a heavy blanket of unearned dread
Settles right over my chest
Static is blurring my eyes
My hands start to shake,
a sudden earthquake
Taking me completely by surprise.

(Pre Chorus)
The floor feels like water, the walls look like glass
My brain keeps asking how long this will last
The clock on the wall is ticking too loud
I’m trapped in my skin like a claustrophobic crowd.

(Chorus)
And it’s a physical fight just to catch a breath
A chemical trick making me think of death
My heart is a hammer, the static is white
I’m perfectly safe in a terrifying fight
Grounding my feet, though the world wants to tilt
Trying to tear down the walls that fear built
Just breathe in, hold it, let it all out
I am much bigger than the shadow of doubt.

(Verse 2)
My throat feels tight, though it’s loose on my skin
The adrenaline wakes up the monster within
It tells me to run, but there’s nowhere to go
When the emergency happens inside your own soul
The tips of my fingers are tingling and numb
Countdown from five for the calm that will come
Look at the chair, look at the door
Plant both my open palms flat on the floor.

(Pre Chorus)
The floor is still solid, the glass isn't real
I am not the victim of the way that I feel
The clock on the wall is just keeping the time
And slowly the mountain is safer to climb.

(Chorus)
But it’s a physical fight just to catch a breath
A chemical trick making me think of death
My heart is a hammer, the static is white
I’m perfectly safe in a terrifying fight
Grounding my feet, though the world wants to tilt
Trying to tear down the walls that fear built
Just breathe in, hold it, let it all out
I am much bigger than the shadow of doubt.

(Bridge)
Five things I see: the light on the wall
Four things I hear: the wind in the hall
Three things I touch: the fabric of my sleeve
Two things I smell: the rain on the leaves
One thing I taste: the salt on my tongue
The storm is clearing out, the battle is won.

(Outro)
The hammer slows down to a steady, quiet beat
The air comes back in, cool and sweet
The ghostly alarm is finally turning off
It was only a wave and I didn't drown
The static goes quiet, the anchor is down.

I am still here.